A Blog Died
About 18 months ago I started a blog.
I slowly, painstakingly designed it. I built it from scratch. I chose a set of topic areas I thought I could write on. Within each topic area, I made a long list of posts to write. I wrote some of them. I posted them. A few people read 'em.
But, about two months in, I'd come to a complete standstill. I'd stopped writing. Stopped adding new post ideas to my queue. My blog was dead.
Now, as any one who knows me can attest, I have a lot of thoughts about a lot different things. I often have new ideas and learn new interesting facts. I compulsively dump these ideas and facts on whoever will listen. I do (in my opinion) interesting work. I recreationally study foreign languages. Et cetera, et cetera.
Theoretically, I should have tons of good material to blog about. So why couldn't I keep a little blog going?
Honestly: I'm not sure.
Mostly I think it's because I had too high of standards for my own posts. The idea of putting something out there that wasn't a 100% well-researched, fact-checked article with a bulletproof argument really bothered me.
Why did I feel that way? Not sure. I'm not a paid columnist. I'm not a journalist. I'm not writing entries for an encyclopædia. But yet, the self-imposed burden of writing a perfect piece ended up keeping me from writing anything at all.
So, 18 months later, my new thought on the matter is this: Who cares? It's a just another dumb blog. It's fine if I'm wrong, even in public.
I've never been one to stubbornly cling to an idea or a concept in the face of contradictory evidence. In fact, I'm quite happy whenever I learn something new that contradicts what I'd previously thought. I like the feeling of my worldview getting slightly more accurate.
Knowing that, I've been put off by the idea of having my thoughts (semi-)permanently recorded, when there's a very good chance I'll think differently a year or two later.
But now, I think it might be nice to have a record of how my thoughts and opinions have changed. There are no absolute truths anyway. Newton's laws are still really useful, even if we know they aren't 100% accurate. And having Newton's laws got a lot more done than not having them.
So, I'm just gonna write what I think. If it changes, I'll write that too. Maybe I can get a little momentum going this time.